So, as per usual, I've been absent from my blog for awhile. Clearly, I am terrible at this stuff. A lot has happened. I've started writing a few entries over the past couple months. Each time I've thought better of it before posting them. I get started writing, and I think...well maybe the less said the better. I didn't (don't) want to place blame or make excuses.
But I wanted to write something still. What has it been really, but a learning experience.
I quit a job after the second day of shooting. Uncharacteristic, I know.
It was surreal-- the moment when I realized I was actually going to give up. I really wasn't expecting that.
I've tried to explain why it happened the way it did quite a few times now. I don't think the explanation has been the same twice really. I always wonder what the people on the other side of the situation say. What reasons do they give? Perspective is a very interesting thing. I will admit, my perspective on the whole thing has changed nearly every day. It's a never-ending philosophical conundrum.
Let it suffice to say, the whole thing was rather complicated in scope and just when I think I've got a handle on all the what and why, I think of something else and it's all blown to shit. Basically. Who the heck knows. (I totally just typed fuck there and deleted it. Damn gripping, turns me into a potty mouth.) Its nobody's fault, and its everybody's fault, and it doesn't really matter.
I am much happier now.
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